Selina Skies

May 06, 2023 10:23 PM
Right now, it was Selina’s job to celebrate the end of term. And that was what she was doing. The incident with Xavier was as resolved as it could be, in that he had been sent away for further treatment, and the steps that had led to this happening had been investigated. It was never easy when something went badly wrong. In some ways, it became all consuming—for several days, dealing with the fallout of the incident had been Selina’s number one priority, and normal responsibilities and previous carefully scheduled plans had had to be roughly shoved aside to make room for talking to parents, investigating the incident, arranging counseling sessions… But at the same time, life didn’t stop. The rest of the world did not grind to a halt because of one person’s emergency. Being deputy head was always like keeping a series of plates spinning, and even this didn’t mean the rest got put away or could be allowed to crash down. There were exam procedures to run (with a tiny, overlapping hitch of removing one of the candidates from the roster), there was the bonfire to arrange. Selina’s heart hurt, but those feelings had to be packed away in the interests of keeping everything moving. Rather than having an acute attack of tears or sorrow, she carried it like a chronic weight throughout the week—the deep, dragging and ever present sensation of something being very wrong. The feeling spiked whenever her mind circled back around and actively thought about the situation, but then she put it away again.

It was both on her mind and distant from it as she prepared to welcome students to the bonfire. This was about everyone. It was a celebration. It needed her attention. But the ritual she’d been trying to work out had only just crystalised in the last few days, and she couldn’t say how connected it was to recent events.

“Good evening,” she greeted the assembled students. “Welcome to the end of term bonfire. As usual, we will have food available, including items you can cook over the small fires around the edge. We will be reserving the large fire in the middle for setting positive intentions.” Selina indicated the large bonfire in the middle. Around it, at a distance, sat smaller ones to make cooking easier, and so as to not muddle the purpose of the main fire—if fire was power and purity, then shoving a baked potato or a marshmallow into it wasn’t really appropriate. “Whilst fire can be destructive, and can be used to burn away things you want rid of, in many cultures, fire is seen as offering power. The idea of burning a wish in fire is said to transport the idea out of this realm, and lend it strength. Tonight, you are encouraged to make a wish on behalf of a classmate.” This was the part that had come to her in the last few days. The idea of setting a positive intention using the fire had been knocking around her mind for a long time, but teenagers often wished for selfish or unrealistic things for themselves—wishing someone would date you didn’t respect their free will, and wishing that you could get the best grades in the class couldn’t work if everyone wanted it. Not that the wishes would really have the power to make those things happen, but it didn’t feel like a positive act when Selina had so many concerns about what might be wished for. Hopefully, by transferring the focus to other people, they would give it more careful thought. It also carried a message of caring and community, which felt like a stronger message to send. “This ritual is optional. You may choose not to participate, or to offer wishes for multiple people. Other than that, you are free to enjoy the fire, socialise with friends, and enjoy the snacks.

“As a reminder, it’s a minimum of three per tent and no maximum. Please register your group with an adult by eight pm so we know that everyone is accounted for and can start assigning tents.

“Enjoy your evening.”
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Jasper Brockert

May 10, 2023 3:16 AM
OOC: CW-a bit of emotional abuse and homophobia. You guessed it, it's a Eustace thing BIC:

Jasper could not believe that it was his last night at Sonora. The last seven years were…well mostly good. He had helped out with two charity booths his first year, supporting amazing organizations which were kind of personal to him. One of them was personal because it helped out people like his cousin Miles and made places more…allergy friendly.

Actually, now that that was on his mind and he was at the Bonfire, he couldn’t help but worry about how this particular event might not be good for his cousin. First of all, um, nature. Miles did not get on with it very well, all that…pollen. Then there was the fire, which of course, produced smoke, which Jasper did not think his cousin could handle. Worst of all, there was a potential cross-contamination issue with cooking things in the same fire that had been used to cook things he could not eat.

So, now the Teppenpaw was worried that this particular Midsummer Event was going to be inaccessible for his cousin and since Jasper’s decided passion in life was helping people with disabilities and making things better for them, in any way possible whether it was teaching or taking care with people with intellectual disabilities or making things more accessible for people like Miles, he was less than thrilled with the idea that his cousin couldn’t fully participate in this particular activity and felt sad and angry thinking about how isolated the boy might end up. He probably wouldn’t even be able to cook in the same fire as Uriah, who was his best friend and favorite cousin since Jasper was sure that Uriah would be all about the food. Even though he was usually sensitive and accommodating of Miles and his allergies.

Anyway, the other charity he’d been involved in his first year had been personal because it was an issue that affected Christopher, and that he was pretty sure would affect Honora even worse eventually if it wasn’t already.

And it was something that affected him . Through the charity that Jasper had worked with, he came to realize that he was both emotionally abused by Uncle Eustace and emotionally neglected by his mother who basically was seriously immature and emotionally stunted and became overwhelmed by having so many children in such a short time. It wasn’t even really an excuse though when she had one child with a condition that had gone unnoticed until their tutor figured it out and one child who was a psychopath that terrorized all the others.

Jasper would probably never really forgive either of his parents for this. Well, not necessarily for producing a child who was pure evil since they really could not have expected it and they had five other decent children, but for not…noticing the behavior and doing something about it. As well as not paying enough attention to notice Sapphire’s epilepsy.

Of course, his uncle had no excuse whatsoever for the abuse he’d heaped on Jasper and Chris and even though Uncle Ben and Uncle Elmer-and Aunt Madeleine-stuck up fo the sons, and they weren’t forced into the Quidditch activities, Uncle Eustace still bullied the younger boys. Even though Olaf didn’t care at all. In this case, Jasper had to admire the second year’s…not caring about what others think of him that much.

In fact, Olaf had actually pointed out to the rest of them that Uncle Eustace was someone whose opinion should not matter. In a weird way, the Aladren was showing he cared about them. Though he’d probably rather die than admit it.

Anyway, the other big event of Jasper’s school career had been the Challenges last year. The whole thing had been…particularly interesting. Like he’d spent the whole time having weird tension with Xavier but had sort of come to a place where he realized that the Pecari wasn’t a hyper aggressive toxic alpha male jock who looked down on Jasper for being unathletic. Oz on the other hand had triggered some of his Uncle Eustace-related issues. Someone acting aggressive towards him like that just…made him stiffen and shrink into himself. Like he wanted to act normal and not like he was freaking out, similar to how he was when he was faced with riding a broom. Flying lessons were actually his worst memory, now that he thought about it.

However, the Challenges had also been really cool because he’d bonded with Liesl, and oh yeah, they got second place which was pretty good. Jasper had also liked that his cousin had gotten a chance to shine even though they didn’t get first in the last event. He still thought they got robbed on that one.

So, mostly he guessed he considered his Sonora days a success,

The Bonfire began with Professor Skies talking about the fire and symbolism and setting positive wishes for his classmates. Jasper definitely thought it was a nice thing and had every intention of doing it for a lot of people. Although, part of it was hard, because a lot of people he wanted to set them for were not students anymore. Like, he wanted Sapphire to feel better about herself and realize she was not stupid and he wanted Emerald to have a healthy pregnancy-so far, so good-and a healthy baby. He wanted Allegra to feel safe and Miles to…actually be safe. From not just Topaz and Uncle Eustace but from possible anaphylaxis and also not to be excluded due to his disability. He wanted happiness and love and babies for Ruby who wanted a big family. He wanted nothing for Topaz except her to go far far away from them all but that wasn’t at all a positive wish. Well, technically it was for everyone else, but it was still wishing negative things about Topaz.

Still. Jasper could make wishes for Amethyst, Isla, Christopher, Liesl, and even Olaf and Desmond. And Phillipe.

And one more, for Xavier to get better. The Teppenpaw felt truly bad about him getting sick. Not that it was Jasper’s fault just that he had sympathy for someone in pain. He’d heard all sorts of rumors and had figured from some of the behavior he’d seen, that the Pecari’s issue seemed to be a mental health thing, and Jasper really hoped he got the help he needed. Also, it probably meant that last year the Teppenpaw wasn’t the one with the issue. Except that he actually did, thanks to his uncle.

For now though, he was going to hang out with his roommate who was absolutely his closest friend here at Sonora. They would be meeting up and sharing a tent later with the Aladren boys in their year, who, to be honest would not have been Jasper’s first choice since he’d always kind of felt like they looked down on him, and he kind of would have rather had Graham or the O’Malley twins. However, Bertie was in the Gaming Club with Phillipe and hadn’t been terrible to Chris during the Challenges so Jasper was going to give him a chance. He was still nervous though.

At least Bertie and Quincy were not aggressive alpha males, so there was that..

But still, he wanted to hang out with just Phillipe for a bit. Because he was going to miss him and he just wanted to…say goodbye and spend one last time with his closest friend here. Maybe Uncle Eustace would have a problem with him getting all sappy with his roommate, especially since said roommate was gay, but he was not here and the Teppenpaw did not care.

He turned to Phillipe. “Want to get something to eat?” Jasper asked. “I kind of need to think of what sort of positive intentions I want to send to people in the fire, and eating will give me time to do so. Also, I’m hungry.” The seventh year was, after all, a teenage boy with a big appetite.
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Philippe Delachene

May 14, 2023 8:52 PM
Philippe was not going to get sentimental about Sonora. He'd had good times here. He felt he'd made good friends and learned a lot about magic, himself, and life. Sonora had generally been very positive for him. He'd had a great roommate, he'd met his boyfriend, and he'd been elected Head Student.

But as good as it had been, he was ready to move on, and experience something even better.

He'd miss the people here. Jasper. Val. The Cafe. The Gaming club. Even Durra, his orc cleric that he'd been playing in one form or another for three years and who would likely disappear into a folder and get forgotten about without a group to play with. Heck, he might even miss Oz who had a propensity to ambush him in the library to ask difficult personal questions. But only because those encounters made him feel like he was making a difference in people's lives, helping people understand one another better, and that was exactly the feeling he was hoping to replicate by going into a career as a professional diplomat.

Of course, next year, Jasper and Val wouldn't be here anyway, and he'd lost enough people to graduation already without trying to imagine Sonora without either of them. So he wasn't going to get sentimental, and he wasn't going to look back with any regrets.

He was going to make one more evening of good memories, and close this chapter of his life, feeling like it had been a good one and he had achieved everything he'd set out to achieve.

To that end: "Absolutely!" he said, in emphatic agreement to Jasper's suggestion that food was the first order of business of the night. "I'm starving!" This was hyperbole, but only barely. He hadn't eaten since lunch. Normally, he would have had a few snacks in between, but he'd been packing his stuff and saving room for all the camp food tonight. "Looking forward to a fire roasted hot dog!" To start with anyway. He may follow that up with a hamburger, or maybe a potato cooked in foil.

They collected their food stuffs and as Philippe put his hotdog on his stake, then stuck it out over the smaller fire they'd chosen to do their cooking on, he asked, "Who do you need to think of intentions for? I'm thinking definitely you and Val for mine. Maybe Oz and Xavier," one of which had gone home sick and the other wasn't looking a whole lot better lately. He grinned a little to lighten the mood, "Maybe for Bertie and Quincy to not wake up from my snoring tonight." Jasper had never complained of Philippe having a problem with that, but it was said more in jest than seriousness. He did want them all to have a good last night together though. Maybe he would put something in the fire for them to that effect.

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Jasper Brockert

May 15, 2023 4:59 PM
“Yes!” Jasper replied with regards to the fire-roasted hot dog. “I am pretty sure that I will never have the opportunity to cook out over a fire and sleep in a tent again. I’m actually glad that the event that we only got once was the Ball, since I’ll have to attend plenty of those.” Honestly,while he felt bad for Isla and Liesl, and didn’t necessarily think they were a lot of fun, Jasper did enjoy them slightly more than the Sonora one. People there actually wanted to talk to him.

Though, to be fair, aside from last year with Xavier during the Challenges, he did not exactly feel like most people didn’t want to be around him either. Well, he supposed the Aladrens in his year weren’t exactly enthused about it-and he was going to be sharing with two of them tonight, so yay-and then there were people like Mab and Olaf who just did not like being around people in general, where it was not especially personal.

However, at the Ball here, most people had dates except the Beginners and like a bunch of his relatives. Jasper had not. And because he had not, and most people around his age did, it had not been much fun since he really hadn’t had anyone to talk to. At pureblood balls, that wasn’t the case. Everyone wanted to talk to and/or dance with Jasper. Although the conversations weren’t exactly the most scintillating there.

“I’m glad you got to have it with Freddie though.” He had wanted his roommate to be happy and enjoy things too. Still, the Teppenpaw found the other events to inherently be more fun, as well as things he was highly unlikely to get to do outside of school. Also, he didn’t feel left out like he kind of had at the Ball. Jasper totally understood why Isla was not thrilled that it would be her last event. Though he did hope that Hans would ask Liesl to it next year and that she, at least, would have a better time than she did at the society balls. He was sure Cory would buy her a dress that she would like when her own parents refused.

Maybe he would wish that for her. “Well, the thing about having a lot of relatives is that it gives me a lot of people to make wishes for.” Jasper replied. “I mean, I’m not going to do it for all the ones I don’t know as well, but I should for Amethyst, Isla, Chris and Liesl. And Olaf. Despite the fact that I am pretty sure Olaf thinks this whole thing is ridiculous. I mean, I haven’t talked to him and I can’t read his mind, but I know him well enough to know that making positive wishes for others will make him roll his eyes” Jasper paused, checking on his hot dog. “I was thinking of doing one for Xavier though.” He was still less than inclined to do anything for Oz who had been aggressive with him last year for no reason, a major trigger for the Teppenpaw. He was sure the sixth year was going through some things, and he was not without empathy completely, but he had his limits. Besides, his wish for Xavier probably covered it “I’ll do something for Val though . Do you have any suggestions? Maybe we can brainstorm ideas. I suppose I should include something for Desmond too.”

Jasper laughed at Phillipe’s comment about snoring. “I just hope we can all get along. I’ll be honest.” He had never had an issue with being so with his roommate as he was pretty sure the other Teppenpaw would not react badly to things the way that some might. “I am a little worried about sharing with Bertie and Quincy. Not that I’m backing out.” He quickly added. “I’ve just always thought they didn’t like me very much. That I’m not smart enough for their tastes or something.”
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Philippe Delachene

May 15, 2023 9:49 PM
OOC: cw: internal monologue has an innuendo in the first paragraph BIC:

Philippe nodded, also glad he'd gotten to do his one ball with Freddie. Much earlier and they wouldn't have been dating yet; much later, and Freddie would have been gone. He'd gotten lucky with the rotation for that one. The bonfire was a good one to end on. He could hang out with Jasper, and it was maybe even for the best that Freddie wasn't here for it, because it would have been hard to be that close but need to behave. Plus there were hot dogs. He turned his over so the one side didn't burn before the other even got warm. Actually . . . it was probably good he didn't have to watch Freddie eating hot dogs, too. He blushed just a little and hoped Jasper read it as heat from the fire.

Fortunately, the conversation turned to the wishes, and Philippe pulled his brain out of the gutter and onto more appropriate rails. "Hmm," he said thoughtfully, trying to think of a good intention to burn for Valentine. There were her rather complex relationships, but Philippe wasn't sure he knew exactly who she was dating right now, so maybe steer clear of that whole web. "She's going into wand making, I think. Maybe a good and successful apprenticeship?"

Philippe was vaguely aware of who Desmond was. First year Aladren, one of Jasper's relatives. Beyond that, he knew very little. "You might be on your own for Desmond, though."

"I don't think it's anything personal," he assured his roommate when Jasper admitted to some reservations about their tentmates. "Bertie's always slow to warm to new gamers, and the only reason he likes me is because I've inserted myself into his space for long enough that he's gotten used to me. And I think Quincy is just introverted and reserved. For someone we've shared classes and a small school with for seven years, I don't think I've interacted with him very much, either. I suspect they'll mostly keep to themselves and we'll keep to ourselves."
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Jasper Brockert

May 17, 2023 2:05 AM
“There we go.” Honestly, that was probably a good thing to wish for for his year and housemate. Especially as Jasper really did not want to touch on her romantic life at all, which just seemed like a situation where someone was going to eventually get hurt. He did not know how anyone could be okay with sharing their significant other with someone else in that way. How did you not end up getting jealous? How did you not feel like you weren’t enough?

He knew it was something that he would never ever want for himself. Nor would it be something that he would do to someone else. Jasper expected that when he did find a girlfriend, she would be someone that he loved so much that he wouldn’t be able to imagine wanting to be with anyone else.

The Teppenpaw nodded. “Fair enough.” Philippe obviously didn’t know Desmond at all so wouldn’t be any help. Honestly, Jasper might not even wish for anything for him if he didn’t feel like it would be unfair to exclude him when he planned to make positive wishes for all of his other close relatives. Same with Olaf who probably thought that the whole ritual was idiotic.

The thing was though that with Desmond, the main idea that Jasper could come up with was for him to be a nicer person and become more accepting and empathetic. He wasn’t always very nice to Liesl. True, the seventh year understood that siblings weren’t always nice to each other and of course, he was sure that Desmond had nothing on Topaz in this respect but while he wasn’t a sadistic psychopath, he still made Liesl feel like there was something wrong with her.

Of course, Jasper understood that it wasn’t the first year’s fault, that he took his cues from his parents, his mother in particular. And that he was only twelve so his critical thinking skills and ability to think for himself were probably lacking. Hopefully as he matured, he would become a better, kinder, more empathetic human being. Although Jasper knew full well that that didn’t always happen. Look at Topaz. Look at Uncle Eustace. Still, for Liesl’s sake, the seventh year sincerely hoped that it did.

However, he wasn’t sure it was okay to wish for something like that because it seemed mean to Desmond. Like Jasper was saying the first year was a jerk. Which the Aladren honestly kind of was. It would be nicer for him to say that he wished that Liesl would experience understanding,acceptance and unconditional love than to say, basically, that he wished Desmond would stop being a jerk.

“I suppose that makes sense.” Jasper replied. He knew that just because someone wasn’t super outgoing that didn’t mean that they were stuck-up. Some people were just shy and were likely just worried about rejection or conflict like Christopher was. He knew his cousin didn’t necessarily look down on most people, but was afraid they looked down on him. “I think that sounds reasonable.We can do our thing and they can do theirs.And if they want to do stuff with us, that’s fine too.”
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Philippe Delachene

May 18, 2023 10:09 PM
"Great," Philippe said, nodding in agreement to the loose vague plan that they would do their own thing and Bertie and Quincy would do theirs, and if they all wanted to do something together, they could do that as well. It was about as well defined as any plan Philippe had come up with for the night. He'd definitely wanted to do some things just him and Jasper, and he'd figured they'd just see how things went with Bertie and Quincy, if they met up earlier in the evening, or not until everyone was encourage to make their way to the tents.

He supposed they should probably check in with Professor Skies and register the group, but there was plenty of time for that. Also, they should probably check in with Bertie first, to see if the Aladrens had already handled that bit of organization.

Philippe gave his hot dog a look of scrutiny, and then pulled it out of the fire, carefully depositing it into the bun with a bit of ketchup that he had waiting for it. "I think my hot dog's ready," he declared. He put the roasting stick aside and took a careful bite of the hot dog. He neither burned his mouth nor had to spit it out because it was still cold in the middle. He nodded again slowly, but made a face to show that it wasn't quite right. "Could have maybe used another minute or two to really get hot, but it's a warm dog anyway." He was pretty sure hot dogs were pre-cooked and not made of raw meat so it was probably okay to eat it like this. He took another bite, made a much worse face, and then put the dog back on the stick and back over the fire. "Nope, still chilly in the middle. Definitely needs more cooking."
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Jasper Brockert

May 19, 2023 2:05 AM
Jasper was glad that Philippe agreed with his plans for the two sets of roommates to do their own thing and just meet up in the tent later. To be honest, even with his friend’s explanation for Bertie’s behavior-which was a perfectly okay thing, to be an introvert, though it wasn’t okay to be a snob, ahem Desmond , though Jasper supposed the first year was at least sociable with those who met his approval, which actually made him worse than someone who was shy or introverted as there was nothing wrong with that, and even possibly worse than Olaf who at least seemed to hate everyone equally-Jasper felt like it would be sort of awkward to spend his last night at Sonora hanging around with people that he had barely interacted with for the last seven years.

Still, he admittedly felt a bit guilty for worrying that Bertie and Quincy would be…more like Desmond than possibly just shy and/or introverted. He felt like…he should have known better given he had plenty of relatives who fit into those categories. And Bertie had been Christopher’s Challenge teammate and not at all hostile towards him, so why would he be so towards Jasper? It wasn’t as if the Teppenpaw was super hyperactive-a sort that could be overwhelming for quieter people to be around-or a jock type like his uncle who would pick on the two Aladrens for being nerds. More importantly, for his own well being…they were also not like his uncle.

Something else occurred to him and maybe it was because of the fact that he was feeling bad about assuming they were snobs who didn’t like him instead of just being quiet and introverted which was usually the most logical conclusion. “Should we make wishes for them?” Jasper asked “They are our tent mates after all, but then as we don’t especially know them that well, I really am not sure I can do much more than a generic wish for them to have success in their future or have a nice summer or something.” The wish most people would probably make for the seventh years that they wanted to make wishes for.

Although Jasper was pretty sure he knew what Christopher was going to wish for him-and it wasn’t the generic one he’d just mentioned- because he was planning to wish the same thing for him, which was a safe summer with minimal exposure to Uncle Eustace. “And they probably won’t make them for us. Understandably” Jasper added. He certainly didn’t expect them to make wishes for someone they didn’t know well. True, it occurred to him but then he was a Teppenpaw and maybe more inclined to think of such things.

Philippe withdrew his hot dog from the fire. Jasper watched him taste it. He made a face when his roommate decided it was still too cold in the middle. “Ugh. I’ll keep going with mine then.” They had started cooking them at about the same time, so he figured that if Phillipe’s was unsuitable yet, his probably was too. “I’m not sure how to tell if it’s done, I’ve only ever done this once before. And I probably won’t ever again, but I want to know for right now. I don’t really want to bite into a not fully cooked hot dog.”
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