Professor John Fawcett

September 02, 2012 7:27 PM
Between the higher classes there was, of course, some movement – second years becoming third years and joining the Intermediates, fifth years becoming sixth years and either dropping his class or joining the Advanced class, seventh years graduating from the school and not returning to this lab at all – but it was in the beginners’ class where John saw the most dramatic changes almost every year, due entirely to the influx of new first years that every September brought. The mix always included almost as many skill levels and degrees of affinity for his subject as it did personalities, and it was often anyone’s guess, in the first weeks, which would ultimately affect the quality of their first two years of Potions more.
 
More than he would have liked, though, came down to how well the first year group got along with itself, and to a lesser extent how well it meshed with the second years, which was something the staff had relatively little control over. Often it did not go badly, no more than one or two murderous rivalries or overly-intense friendships in any given age group, but John was feeling a little nervous about how this year was going to go. There were too many names with the same background for him to think that politics, at some point, weren’t going to interfere with the normal functioning of the classroom.
 
None of this, however, was on his face as he stood before the newly-formed Beginner’s class of the year. “Everyone,” he said once the bell had rung, “get in your seats now so we can begin, thank you…” Once the last few had done so, he smiled at the group. “Good afternoon, and welcome – or welcome back – to Potions. I am, for those who have not met me before, Professor Fawcett, your instructor.”
 
He lifted a packet off a stack of identical ones, and the others flew out, one landing in front of each student. “This is your syllabus until midterm. I may give smaller homework or in-class assignments which are not on your syllabus, but in general, what you see is what you can expect, so I hope you will all come to each class prepared.” In truth, he usually ended up off by a day or two every semester, rather than being able to rigidly follow the syllabus, but that was why he’d incorporated review days before midterm. That gave him some flexibility. “You will also find outlined your major essays – “ much milder for the first and second years than for the older groups, though the second year version of the document was a bit heavier than the first year one, too – “and projects, the grading scale, and the code of conduct for my class.”
 
Here he paused to give the class a stern look. “Pay particularly close attention to that,” he told them. “I will not have fighting in my classroom any more than I will have dangerous or reckless behavior in my classroom. You are all here to learn safely, and anyone who prevents someone else from doing so will be punished appropriately. I hope, though, not to have to.” He meant that; John disliked that aspect of his job more than any other. There were, though, times when it was simply the only way to maintain order. “So long as you try to the best of your ability to do what is asked of you, we can get along very well, accommodations may be made for students who need them, but I will not tolerate any of you being deliberately disruptive.”
 
His annual warning delivered, John relaxed. “Now, to more pleasant business. I assume most of you are eager to begin brewing, so you may now open your textbooks to page 13.” He picked up a piece of paper off his desk with one hand while pointing his wand at the board with the other so ‘Page 13’ appeared there, looking over the page to ensure that it was, in fact, the alternative he had come up with for Miss Yale, if she objected to the salamander scales, and any other students who wished to focus on vegan potioneering, as he had finally decided to include a note in the syllabus about how this would be permitted. He had come to almost enjoy these assignments; sometimes, particularly at the more advanced levels, they required a bit more charmswork or worked a bit more slowly, but it was still an interesting challenge. “Here you have a basic confidence draught.
 
“To make this, you will need freshly-chopped daisy roots, three drops of an infusion of lemon balm and lovage, two thoroughly dried leaves of yaupon, the shell of a single sopophorous bean, and a sprinkling of salamander scales. You will find how well you handle those affects the color of the final potion, which should ideally be about the same shade of red your new classmates in Crotalus turned during the Opening Feast, but which should never be any color close to pink or black.”
 
He looked at them over his glasses. “Do your best, and follow the directions carefully. I will call time ten minutes before the end of the period, and then you will bottle samples – make sure to carefully label yours, so I will know who it belongs to – and write me a few sentences – something you learned today, other than how to make this potion, or something you have questions about.” He had decided on this, after seeing it in a magazine for primary educators, as an alternative to calling out a lengthy roll, as the class could become restless during that time and he needed to be sure they had internalized the rules and routines of the class before putting that kind of downtime in their hands. Later, he would know them all by sight and check them off as they entered, but the first years prevented that for now. “You may talk as you work, if you are not disruptive and stay on-task. I will be walking around the room as you work to ensure you do not get too distracted, and to help with any problems you may run into in your brewing. You may begin.”
 
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0 Professor John Fawcett Lesson I for Beginners (1st and 2nd years) 19 Professor John Fawcett 1 5

Melanie Lennox, Teppenpaw

September 03, 2012 11:28 AM
It the beginning of the year, but Melanie already felt a bit weary. The Teppenpaw had a lot on her mind. First of all, as usual, there was her sister's health. Valerie had been sick all summer and spent the trip to Sonora coughing violently. Even though she should have been used to it and she tried hard to put up a strong front so as not to get anyone else down, especially her sister, it was still pretty difficult for Melanie to handle.

It was harder too, at school, with roommates. At home, if she couldn't take it anymore and felt like breaking down and crying, she could go off to her room alone and nobody would bother her. Or indeed, really notice at all that Melanie was upset. Mother was too self-absorbed and Father was busy throwing himself into work. Most of the attention he gave them was spent on Valerie, which the second year really didn't mind much. Her sister needed it more and it wasn't as if he actually ignored her either.

Here, though, if Melanie started crying, her roommates would see. Not only would it totally break the facade she felt she needed to maintain, they might think she was a downer and not like her. Not that she was really supposed to be friends with Aria or Brielle anyway. They weren't proper and her parents didn't approve. Valerie had friends that weren't proper either but that was different. Father just wanted the Crotalus to be happy and Mother didn't seem to expect anything of Valerie due to her being ill. She seemed to have written her elder daughter off completely.

That was another thing on her mind. Melanie didn't have any real close friends at Sonora. Even though her sister was always the person she'd be closest too, the Teppenpaw wanted other friends too. Someone to confide in when things got bad. Someone who would still like her if she let that mask slip.

Plus, Mother had drilled Melanie, whom she had placed all her expectations on, on her classmates. Who would be deemed necessary for the second year to make friends with. Mother had seemed to settle on Lucille to start with, because she was a pureblood that was Melanie's roommate. She also wanted the Teppenpaw to cultivate friendships with Lucrezia Renaldi and Heaven Baird if possible. She'd flat out refused to have anything to do with Carrie O'Malley though, distant cousin or not.

Lucille's cousin Jay and Marcus were also people on the approved list, as they were potential betrothals, and Mother had been quite pleased about her speaking with Marcus last term. For once, the second year agreed with her. She had rather enjoyed being around her fellow Teppenpaw. Just being around her housemate seemed to lift her spirits. It seemed it would be a lot easier for him to bring Melanie up than her to bring him down when he always let his happiness show and she tried not to let her sadness to do the same.

She didn't object to the idea of befriending Lucille either, she felt that her roommate could use a friend as much as she could. Why was something that Melanie couldn't quite put her finger on but it was there. Still, she would feel guilty for ignoring Brielle and Aria and was absolutely not going to. She didn't want to hurt their feelings or have them think that she was stuck-up. Purebloods had a bad reputation for that, and she sure wasn't going to make it worse.

Melanie turned her attention toward Professor Fawcett as he began to speak. One thing she wasn't worried about was her grades. She had done extremely well last year, somehow school just came pretty natural for her. She wasn't perfect but there was no subject that she truly struggled in.

As she listened to the lesson, she began wondering how this could be used. Even though Melanie would have preferred to do some sort of healing potion, maybe one that helped a minor ailment, she could definitely see the need for a confidence draught. Though there were many potions that her sister needed far more, Valerie didn't have much confidence, viewing herself as weak and useless. That was Mother's fault too, the useless part.

Putting on a friendly smile,Melanie turned to the person next to her and asked, "Would you like to work with me?"

11 Melanie Lennox, Teppenpaw Worries 226 Melanie Lennox, Teppenpaw 0 5


Lucille Carey

September 03, 2012 12:57 PM
Lucille was thrilled to be back at school, but she knew she had to be careful not to let herself get carried away. Just because Mother wasn’t here to watch her didn’t mean she could lower her standards of behavior, as she almost had last year, because in the winter, she would almost certainly be allowed to go home this year, and Mother would see then if she hadn’t been good. If she wasn’t good this year, then Mother would be very upset with her.

As, of course, was proper. Mother was only trying to look out for her. If she didn’t watch her so closely, demand so much of her, then she would end up like her father, or worse, like his family from Georgia. Dying would be awful, she didn’t want to do that at all, but being disowned, or at best living on sufferance as a minor scandal, would be even worse. Dying at worst meant that she was as weak and cowardly as a man, as she suspected she was anyway, and Mother had presented a few better-sounding reasons for that over the years, when she was in charitable moods; being disowned was just being disowned, so you were shamed and humiliated and had to live like a wild Muggle in the woods until you, in the end, died anyway, most of the time. Many people here at Sonora seemed to be different, not to fall into the categories Mother had explained as all there was in the world, but Lucille assumed that was because they were not Careys.

Still, some of them did, somehow, seem to be happy. Aria’s life sounded as hard and painful as a disowned person’s, just to listen to it, but she always seemed so calm and content. Had she just accepted her situation? Lucille wanted very much to ask her sometime, but she knew that it would be improper to do so.

In Potions, she took a seat beside her roommate Melanie and tried hard not to fidget, to seem disrespectfully inattentive, during Professor Fawcett’s speech. It made her anxious, sure she couldn’t live up to his expectations, but not as badly as it had the year before, since she had already passed the first half of this class and thought she was really only nervous out of habit, sort of, almost like it was a habit to smile and curtsy when she met a new person, whether they were the kind of person she had to curtsy to and she felt like smiling or not. It seemed a little shorter than it had been, but she wasn’t sure, and enough of it was about what they were doing for her to know she shouldn’t think of anything else, too. She had to pay attention, write down what he was saying, just in case he said something that wasn’t on page 13 of the book.

When she was finished and they had been told they could begin, Lucille opened her ingredients set, looking over it and pushing down the feeling that the task in front of her was overwhelming out of habit, too. She smiled when Melanie smiled. As interesting as other people were, there was something to be said – other than that Mother would approve – to working with other people like her, who knew the forms and she didn’t have to worry…much about offending by mistake because she didn’t know what they expected.

“Of course,” she said. “Where would you like to start?” Lucille had learned to always hand the decision-making over to someone if there was any way to. That way, it was easier to avoid the blame if anything went wrong.
0 Lucille Carey We all have them 224 Lucille Carey 0 5

Melanie

September 05, 2012 10:58 AM
Her smile became more genuine when she realized it was Lucille that she was talking to. Melanie didn't really think she was up to dealing with someone new right at the moment, when she was so concerned about her sister-who seemed to be really sick at the moment-and was having a really difficult time thinking about much else. It wasn't always that way, but it was at the moment.

It was comforting to be with someone familiar, Marcus with his unending happiness would have been ideal, but Melanie didn't mind working with Lucille either. She genuinely liked the other Teppenpaw from what she knew of her and wanted to be closer friends. It wasn't because it was what Mother wanted. The second year usually didn't do stuff just to please her mother. Oh, sure, Melanie would act polite and proper and whatnot, it was just the right way to behave but that didn't mean she didn't have a problem with her mother in general.

She couldn't stand the woman's selfish shallow ways. She never spent any time with Valerie at all, even when the Crotalus was at her worst. As for Melanie, her mother seemed to push at her to be an exemplary lady to compensate for what her older sister couldn't do. The twelve year old bore these expectations well and that wasn't what she didn't like, it was simply the reasons why the expectations were in place than angered her.

Most of what Mother wanted Melanie to do seemed very trivial to her anyway. Things about shopping for clothing and getting their hair done and lunchons with other prominent women in the area and their daughters and whatnot. Mother wanted a doll, it felt, not a daughter. The thing that truly got to Melanie about all that was that it was only her, never Valerie. The older girl couldn't and the Teppenpaw felt awful doing something when her sister was unable to have these opportunities.

She considered Lucille's question. There were no bugs involved and even if there had been, she had less problem with dead ones than live ones. Living bugs could get into your hair and stuff. They were gross and the Teppenpaw might not have wanted to do activities if her sister couldn't, but that didn't mean she wasn't a lady.

"I'd kind of like to do the infusions." Melanie replied. Somehow they'd always seemed neat to her. So many things contained them from potions like this one to things that flavored food to sweet smelling bath oils. The second year loved to take long bathes, relaxing in the tub with fragrant (but not overpowering) bath salt crystals dissolving and scenting the air, making Melanie smell nice too. Her troubles seemed to melt away when she was in the tub.

She added graciously, though. "Unless it's something you'd really like to do too." The Teppenpaw didn't want to appear bossy, the way some people in their class seemed to be. That was no way to win friends and it wouldn't do well to treat someone poorly, especially someone that you had to share a room with.
11 Melanie Sad but true 226 Melanie 0 5


Lucille

September 07, 2012 6:57 PM
“Oh, no,” Lucille said with another smile when Melanie offered to give up the infusions if Lucille felt strongly about them. “You can do those.”

She had no more desire to work on those than on anything else they had to do for the potion, but she thought she would have yielded precedence anyway. She didn’t know which of them, technically, had greater status even after all the drills her mother had made her do over the past year, but even if she did have an edge – which she doubted, considering how scandal-haunted her immediate family was – she couldn’t remember a single time when refusing to go along with anyone other than her brothers had ended well. Obedience was easy; arguing only caused everyone to be unhappy, and the one person who might not be completely happy anyway to be worse off than they had to be. In this case, she got to be as content as she would have been otherwise, so that was just so much to the better.

Lucille picked up her knife. “I’ll chop our daisy roots, and shell the sopophorous bean, while you do that,” she added, and began to do exactly that. She did know she could say that without too much worry, instead of asking. Feeling unsure of herself, like she might do it wrong just because she hadn’t asked permission to do it, was something she expected and something that happened, but it wasn’t as bad as it might have been with an older student, or a boy, or even another girl she hadn’t had much of an opportunity to interact with. Melanie, though, was relatively safe. Relatively.

“Did you – did you have a pleasant summer?” she asked, since they hadn’t really had a chance to catch up yet. Being in a room with so many girls tended to make it hard for Lucille to talk to any of them; she interacted more with all her roommates in the Hall, if they sat with her, and in classes, when it was one-on-one, than she did with anyone in the room, where she felt that she would just be getting in the way most of the time if she tried to initiate or join a conversation. It was easier to just do her studying somewhere else and then come into the room just before it was time for bed, when everyone was busy.
0 Lucille We just have to try our best anyway 0 Lucille 0 5

Melanie

September 10, 2012 9:37 PM
Melanie returned her roommate's smile. "I guess I can do the salamander sprinkles." She offered graciously. The Teppenpaw didn't really want to stick Lucille with them when the other girl had given her first pick of what to do. Fortunately, she didn't have to take them off the poor salamander or anything. Melanie would never have been able to gather the animal ingredients even though she was okay with using them in potions and eating meat.

She just couldn't hurt anything or anyone. Unless they hurt Valerie first maybe. That was a different story, though Melanie didn't quite know what she would do if that happened. She'd have to get back at the person without being unladylike and furthermore, the second year just plain wasn't a mean person. Luckily, everyone seemed to have been nice to Valerie aside from one boy who wasn't even at school anymore whom the Crotalus said seemed to dislike her. Melanie had never met the boy but she wasn't a fan.

The only creatures harming Valerie now were germs. Those would never leave the fourth year alone and it upset the Teppenpaw a great deal that she could do nothing about it. Melanie would never be a healer or develop a potion that would fix her sister's immune system completely. Even though the second year was a proper lady, did well in school, and was above all healthy, she felt like the useless one in this respect. The best that the second year would ever be able to do would be to maybe make a minor potion to help Valerie be in less pain.

Melanie paused and tried to think of how to reply to Lucille's question. It was a pretty standard one that was a typical conversation starter this time of the year. However, she didn't want to tell the other Teppenpaw exactly how things in her life were, even though people probably knew about her sister. Valerie's condition was often apparent but it wasn't as if she and Lucille were close enough for Melanie to confide in. Not yet, though it would certainly be nice though the second year wouldn't talk about it in class anyway. "I guess it could have been worse." She replied diplomatically.
11 Melanie That's all we can do. 226 Melanie 0 5


Lucille

September 14, 2012 7:49 PM
“If you like,” Lucille said when Melanie said she could also handle sprinkling the salamander scales into the cauldron. It wasn’t that bad of a task, really, but Lucille didn’t really like the instructions like that; she always either had too heavy or too light a hand with the ingredient, and then the potion either didn’t work or it was too weak. She didn’t know if Melanie, or anyone who didn’t have either years of experience or a natural affinity for potion-making, could do any better, but it would at least take the responsibility off her shoulders.

When Melanie said her summer could have been worse, Lucille bit the end of her tongue a little. Of course it could have been worse. One of the first pieces of advice about life she could remember her mother giving her was that no matter how bad something was, it could always be worse, there was always some little thing that could be made the tiniest bit more unbearable even when things seemed like they were already so bad that no one could ever survive them. Even if it was going to kill you no matter what, the amount you suffered before it did could always be greater. That, Mother said, was how the world worked, and from what Lucille had seen, her mother was completely right about that.

She had never said so aloud, but privately, she thought that even what had happened to Mother could have been worse. Her father could have gotten the divorce before they had Mal, instead of waiting until he was two months old, and that would have left Lucille without a full brother who made her a more valuable asset and the both of them without any claim to the roof over their head after Dad died. Almost everything would have gone to Stepmother and Baby, and the family might not have taken pity on them the way it had when they were the mother and sister of an heir.

“That’s always good,” she said. “My mother used to say that nothing could ever be ‘the worst’ until it made you lose your powers.” A strange idea, but it would be very close to the worst thing that could happen; without power, it seemed impossible that things could ever get better. She had been warned since her father died that if she ever did anything wrong, she’d have to starve to death in the Muggle streets after she was disowned, and she would still have her wand even if the family did throw her out, so she didn’t even know what would happen if she was expelled, her wand snapped, and then she was disowned. “Is your family well?” she asked, though she knew that Valerie Lennox was never really well. Subjectively, though, they could have all been better or worse than usual, and of course Melanie could always lie. Lucille would never dream of telling anyone the truth about what and how she felt at home.
0 Lucille Do you think it'll be enough? 0 Lucille 0 5

Melanie

September 19, 2012 1:51 AM
Melanie glanced up at her roommate. "That...does sound pretty awful." It wasn't a thought that had ever occurred to her. Powers were something one was born with so technically one couldn't lose them, but they could have their wand snapped. Still, the Teppenpaw had never even considered that happening to her, as someone would have to do something pretty horrible to be expelled and she wasn't inclined to do so.

Still, what was a witch if she couldn't do magic? Even as sick as Valerie was, she would be even more helpless if she didn't. Melanie had never thought about it that way and it really did help to make her feel a little better. At least neither of them was a Squib. That would have been a disaster, especially with Mother. Having a daughter who was ill was unfortunate, but at least it wasn't shameful.

"I've never thought of it that way." Melanie replied. "It's not something I'm especially worried about. I mean, I don't really plan to break any rules, especially major ones that would get me in so much trouble that I'd be unable to ever do magic and powers just don't up and leave. Trying to survive without them would be dreadful though." She could barely imagine such a thing. Even though she was healthy, Melanie wouldn't survive that way. Maybe being sick wasn't as bad as that, Valerie was still alive after all.

Not that it made her any less worried about her sister, but still, she appreciated the fact that Lucille had made her think of how bad it could be and never would. Both the second year and her sister were at Sonora which meant they had their magic. Neither was going to do anything terrible that would prevent them from being able to use it. Neither would do anything shameful. Neither had the inclination and Valerie wasn't well enough to do so even if she had.

The Teppenpaw got out the salamander scales and began to shake, just as Lucille inquired about the health of her family and a little too much got into the potion. "They're fine." Melanie said, perhaps a little too quickly. She just hoped her roommate would take her tone as anxiety over the probably ruined potion. "I am so sorry, I mean, that I messed up here." She nodded at the concoction, genuinely feeling guilty about it. They'd get a poor grade now because of her and she didn't really want Lucille to be angry with her.
11 Melanie I sure hope so. 226 Melanie 0 5


Lucille

September 19, 2012 11:00 PM
Lucille smiled as Melanie talked about how she didn’t plan to do anything wrong, looking back down at her ingredients as quickly as she felt she could without looking suspicious. She didn’t plan to go wrong, but…Bad blood, Mother always said. Bad blood would come out, unless she was very careful. It wasn’t enough to just try to be her best; she had to actually be the best, all the time, every moment. If she didn’t….

She closed her eyes. No. No. It wasn’t going to happen. She wasn’t going to go bad. She wasn’t going to disgrace her family. She was going to be perfect. She was going to do what she had to do, and she was going to do it perfectly. She would not be driven out in disgrace, any more than she would be expelled. No.

Her hands were steady as she kept chopping the daisy roots. “We can only imagine,” she said solemnly when Melanie agreed that it would be awful to try to survive without magic. “I don’t see how anyone could, unless…” She wished she hadn’t added that ‘unless,’ but it was too late now. She had already said it, already gone too far. And not a minute after she had thought about how she could never make mistakes. That always happened to her. “Unless someone took pity on them, I suppose.”

She thought they had probably better change the topic. People could be listening, and there were things that just weren’t supposed to be discussed. This was one of them, she was sure of it. She chopped the rest of the daisy roots a little haphazardly, not taking as much time or putting as much attention to it, and then feeling worse when her question about Melanie’s family seemed to be why she shook too much of the salamander scale into their potion.

“It’s all right,” she said, looking at the potion and trying not to look very concerned. “I’m sure it’ll still be…something we can work with, anyway.” Vaguely, she thought that if they increased everything else…but she knew nothing about proportions, and the cauldron wasn’t big enough to just double it. “I’m sorry I distracted you when you were putting them in,” she added, since she did feel bad about it. It was her fault if the potion did fail. It should still work a little, but if it didn’t….
0 Lucille There's not much we can do about it now 0 Lucille 0 5

Melanie

September 25, 2012 4:33 AM
"I guess Muggles live without magic, but it can't possibly be much of a life." Melanie mused. "It must be so difficult." Muggleborns were lucky, in a way, to escape that by having powers. As far as she was concerned it was one of the greatest gifts that they could have been given. There were a lot of different talents a person could have, in music or art or whatnot, but nothing would take a person further than having magic. For example, Melanie was an all right piano player, nothing special, ultimately though, she wouldn't need it when she was just going to be a proper pureblood lady but she would always need her magic.

It was one thing though, that the Teppenpaw didn't feel she needed to worry about though. There was absolutely no way that she would screw up and get disowned or expelled. Of course, if the latter happened, the former most surely would too. Not only that, but the scandal would likely cost her family too, and Melanie didn't want that. She didn't want to hurt them, not even Mother.

Honestly, she really couldn't understand why someone would misbehave and end up harming themselves and their family's reputation. Especially if it led to a difficult, magic free existence. Certainly, some families were unreasonably harsh, but why would anyone go out of their way to make mischief that might cost them everything? Nothing was worth that and despite her problems with her mother, there was nothing Melanie would find worse than being cast out. Not only would being so lead to rotten life, but she didn't want to leave her sister either. She doubted Valerie would handle it well at all, and it would likely lead to the older girl being upset to the point where it, of course, made her sick. The Teppenpaw didn't want to be the cause of that obviously.

Melanie replied. "I can't imagine anyone doing that." It was true. Maybe pitying a Squib-they were the ultimate objects of pity, after all-but someone who recklessly disregarded the rules knowing what would happen to them? Furthermore, if one was disowned, nobody in their family would ever associate with them or risk being in the same position themselves. Another reason that Melanie would never let it happen to her. Valerie would still want to associate with her and get thrown out too-and she absolutely wouldn't survive, not without the potions she was dependent upon.

"Oh, no, it's all my fault." The second year assured her roommate. She had been the one to sprinkle in too many salamander scales and needed to practice more self-control. Lucille's question about her family was a reasonable, normal one, everyday conversation. It wasn't the other Teppenpaw's fault that the health of Melanie's family-her sister in particular but she didn't want the rest of them to be sick either-was her weak spot.
11 Melanie Aside from keep trying. 226 Melanie 0 5


Lucille

September 28, 2012 10:47 PM
“No, I can’t imagine it would,” Lucille said quietly, her eyes still on her work. She knew, from the wife they didn’t talk about, that Muggles could look normal enough, but she couldn’t imagine that they had much of a life if they weren’t like that woman, wards of a wizard.

That woman, her half-sister’s mother, was a Muggle, but they were never supposed to talk about that. Officially, they didn’t talk about Amber at all if they could avoid it, but if they had to, then she thought the thing they tried to imply was that her sister was a pureblood bastard, rather than a technically legitimate true half-blood, though ideally they avoided mentioning Amber’s mother and her relationship to their father even if they did have to talk about Amber herself for some reason. Lucille only knew the truth because her mother considered it a cautionary tale, something to frighten her and her brother with: if they were like their father, and mixed with Muggles, then they would die like he had, just as they would if they did…more things than she could count, really, except for the times when whatever it was they might do would ultimately mean a death even worse than Dad’s.

Some people, Lucille was very sure, could do everything she wasn’t permitted to and never have any problems at all. She was just as sure that if she did, she would get the fates worse than her father’s. Lucille did not think she had good luck, or anything even remotely resembling it. The only thing she had going for her was caution…on the days when it didn’t turn into enough fear to keep her from doing things, anyway.

When Melanie insisted that it was all her fault that the potion was a little off, Lucille thought that was going to happen. She didn’t know what to say. She had been trying to be diplomatic, share the blame so they could move past the moment, that she knew how to do, but she didn’t know how to let someone else take all the blame without it being awkward and horrible. She supposed this was what she got for having a habit of wanting to do the same thing when something went wrong; from the inside, it felt like it would make things better, to just take the blame, but when it was actually playing out, it just made things more difficult….

“I’m sure it’ll be all right,” she said, looking at the potion, which she hoped was either supposed to make the most onomatopoeic noises she'd heard one make or that she was only imagining was noisy from nerves, seeking to move the topic so they could just not acknowledge the issue of guilt anymore. “I know I never get potions exactly right no matter what, but, well, I haven’t failed yet.” Potions just wasn’t her forte, not at all, but she did well enough to pass. Enough that the censure for her grades last year had been comparatively mild, not even as bad as what she had been expecting so much that she had spent the whole last week of school feeling sick to her stomach every so often, usually unexpectedly, when the thought of going home with her grades had hit her without warning. She was hoping to avoid repeating the experience this year.
0 Lucille Yes, we do always have that option 0 Lucille 0 5

Melanie

October 02, 2012 11:29 PM
Melanie gave her roommate a grateful smile when Lucille tried to assure her that it would be all right. She wasn't especially used to being comforted, the things that usually upset her were ones that she didn't let on to, even though it was something everyone obviously knew about. It was quite clear to everyone at school probably that Valerie wasn't well.

However, because of this the Teppenpaw was often the one doing the comforting and it felt extremely odd to be on the receiving end of it. That didn't mean, however, that she didn't appreciate it and that she wasn't glad that Lucille didn't seem to be mad at her, though she might have just not wanted to make a scene. Doing so was generally not considered to be a good thing and reflected poorly on oneself and their family.

She didn't really think that was what Lucille was doing though. There was something about her roommate that seemed...genuinely nice to Melanie. Like she wouldn't want to hurt someone's feelings, which she supposed was a Teppenpaw thing in general but still. Perhaps it was a step to becoming friends.Kindness was something she really valued in people.

It was one reason she was actually glad to be Sorted where she was even though Melanie had initially wanted to go into Crotalus with Valerie. She supposed it was good though for them to meet other people and have other friends. It didn't mean she couldn't be there for her sister if they did. In fact, Melanie needed the support, as much as she didn't like to admit it and she was glad that there were other people who liked and cared about Valerie.

Besides, if she'd been in the same House as her sister, she would have had to share a room with Carrie O'Malley. Ugh.

"You're right." The second year replied. She didn't want to dwell on the potion. People made mistakes. Melanie wasn't perfect and she never would be. Besides, it wasn't as if she wouldn't make up for this error later and Lucille at the very least didn't seem angry with her. That was the important thing.
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