Headmistress Kijewski-Jareau

May 03, 2013 11:19 PM
The ball was finally upon them and the end of another school year. For some of the students, this would be their last hurrah with their friends before they officially graduated and moved on to another stage of their life. For others, this was the first real ball that they may have attended in their young life. For Kiva, she had been through so many of these that even if only every four years, it felt routine. At least this year had been different. Instead of the competitive sport of Quidditch, they had the challenges, equally competitive but in very different ways. Everyone could play and it wasn’t house specific. She felt this had been a good bonding experience for the students as it allowed them to mingle with those they may not have otherwise. She was certain that there were team disputes dealt with quietly between the members, but any experience, good or bad, made a person’s spirit stronger. Or so she was told. It was a learning experience at any rate.

Because of the amount of work the students put into the challenges and how well they had done, Kiva had put into the budget the ability to give everyone a small plaque. It was a token for them to have for a job well done and that the school appreciated their efforts. The team list would also be placed into the trophy room. The top five teams, however, would be getting something in addition to their plaques. But those announcements would come in a moment. For now, she wanted to enjoy the reaction to the students’ faces.

The hall was set much like that of a reception hall. Where the staff table usually was placed, was a stage instead with a band. They were only a cover band, but from their resume and references, they were worth it and since they did popular cover songs, she thought the students would enjoy them as well. A large dance floor was open in front of the stage for students (and staff if they so choose) to use. Surrounding the dance floor were medium sized round tables, large enough for small groups of friends and their dates to have easy conversations without having to shout across the tables, but small enough not to feel the need to fill each seat. The tables were decorated in Pecari colors, as were the other party decorations including the banner that hung above the stage declaring Pecari the House Cup winner, and flowers were the center pieces. It was all eloquently done by the Prairie Elves. They always did enjoy throwing a good bash for the students and making sure it was something they remembered.

Kiva waited patiently for the students to settle in with their friends or dates before standing and requesting for their attention. When she had them, Kiva gave them a smile. “Good Evening, everyone! It’s the end of the school year. The challenges are over, the examinations are over, and summer is right around the corner. What better way to end this exciting year than with a ball?” Well, she thought it was exciting, who knew what they felt. “As always, we have end of year announcements. First, I want us all to say farewell to our wonderful Librarian, Miss. Diaz. I know some of you have become rather fond of her and I hope she does know how much she will be missed. She’s done a lot for this school, including implementing the Library Monitor and Assistant program. Miss Diaz, I wish you luck in your next adventure.” Kiva commented, looking at DiAnna and giving her an applause. It would be difficult to find another Librarian who had the same initiative as DiAnna.

Kiva waited a moment for any applause or comments from the students to die down before she began her next announcement. “I would like for Mr. Derwent Pierce the Fourth and Miss. Regina Parker to come to the front.” It was obvious what this announcement was for. It was strange that during the choosing of the names for the ballot, it was the boys who had given the staff a hard time picking and one was left off because his vote was one less than another boy. This time, when their peers voted, it had been the girls who were neck and neck for votes. In the end, Regina had one by only one or two votes over Josephine. Kiva thought either girl would have been suitable for the title of head girl. “Everyone, please meet your new Head Boy and Girl.” Kiva stated once the two of them were up by her. She clapped for them before indicating they could sit down once more.

“Because this year had been a challenging year for everyone involved, we as a staff wanted to reward all of you for your hard work. Each of you will receive a plaque along with your yearbook. I hope you all know how proud we are of everything you were able to overcome and accomplish together as a team.” Kiva complimented them and genuinely meaning her words. Even those who hadn’t wanted to participate, still had and hadn’t let their team down. Much like meal times, a plaque and yearbook appeared on the table in front of each student. “But with every challenge, there is a winner. The top five teams will each earn a trophy, but the number one team will have their names engraved onto a trophy in the trophy room.” She wasn’t sure if anyone would understand the honor of that, but if they were ever to stumble upon the room and read the trophies of honored students of the past, they may then understand the significance. The size of the trophies given to the students varied based on the placement of their team, the winning team with the largest of them all.

“When I call your team, please come up to take your trophies and stand to the right of me. Please hold your applause until all the teams are announced.” Kiva advised them. “The team in fifth place is Team Fifteen! The team in fourth place is Team is Team Fourteen! Breaking into the top three is Team One in third place. Our second place winning team is Team Five. And our Challenge winning team that cleared each challenge with the highest of points is….” Kiva did a dramatic pause for the fun of it before continuing, “Team Four!” She applauded, “Let’s hear it for these teams and your classmates for a job well done!” Kiva waited for it to die down once again and for the winning teams to get their trophies before saying anything more. “The Team ranking list will be placed in the hall by the end of the evening in case you were curious to know how your team did during the challenge.” Once they had all received their trophies, they were free to return to their seats.

“That’s all the announcements that I have. We will have the Prefects and Head students lead off the night with a dance followed by dinner. Prefects and Heads, if you’ll please come to the dance floor.” Kiva nodded to the band and with that, the night began.

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Brianna Japos

May 05, 2013 12:04 AM
Brianna was nervous about the ball and going with Linus. She had hung around Linus all year, so making conversation wouldn’t be terribly difficult. Or so she hoped. Dancing was still a little bit of an uncertainty, but she felt that Linus wouldn’t hate her if she messed up and stepped on his toes and that gave her a bit of confidence in that field. If she did happen to mess up, she hoped he’d just laugh it off or pretend it never happened. Her worry was about how she looked. Linus seemed so put together and from what she gathered, he came from money. When they had gone together as first years, those sorts of things didn’t matter quite as much to her as they did now. She didn’t want to embarrass him at all.

She took her time getting ready that day. The dress was a beautiful deep purple that went well with her olive complexion and dark features and a silk material. The strapless top portion folded around her slim torso and fit snuggly for her not to worry about malfunctions, while the bottom half had a nice flowy feel to it and ended just above her knees. Her mother had refused to buy a floor length dress out of fear that her crutches would snag and trip her. There was a metallic gold belt that separated the two sections. Brianna matched her shoes to her belt. The only problem with her shoes was that they weren’t heeled shoes. She was too worried about trying to walk in those as much as she was about wearing a long dress.

She had curled her long brown hair for the first time in her life and wasn’t sure if she liked it. It gave her hair volume, but she felt maybe it was too much. She had brushed it out a bit and it had left her hair in waves, which she felt a little better about. Brianna didn’t wear much make up on a normal day. Mostly, just a little eye liner, but for the affair, she dressed up her eyes for a smokey look, a look she obtained in a magazine, and gave her cheeks a little color. She only put gloss on her lips out of fear that color would draw too much attention to them. All in all, she thought she looked nice, maybe even a little grown up. She wished she didn’t have to have her crutches. She might have been able to get away with one, but didn’t know if Linus would enjoy her hanging on him for the entire evening.

Hoping that she would at least not embarrass him for her looks, Brianna gave herself on last look over and made last minute adjustments before taking her crutches and heading down to the common room. At least they could get the awkward moment of seeing each other dressed up out of the way before they were in the crowded hall full of their peers. So, if he was let down by what he saw, she would be embarrassed in front of everyone, just their house mates.

Spotting him after a moment, Brianna smiled nervously and gave a small wave to him. If he saw her and kept right on walking because he was embarrassed, Brianna wouldn’t really blame him. If that happened, she’d just go on her own and keep Josh company. She hoped that it wouldn’t happen, but she always prepared herself for the worst.
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Linus Macaulay

May 05, 2013 6:48 AM
Attending the ball with Brianna was not something about which Linus felt nervous. It had little to do with having taken her in their first year, because, aside from the venue, Linus didn't feel that this occasion was in any way similar. They were both older, more mature, and more physically dissimilar than before. There were a great deal better acquainted nowadays, which had prompted yet another difference in the fact that Linus had asked Brianna specifically this time around, rather than a group of Crotalus girls in general. They were both fifth years, revelling in the euphoria of having completed their first encounter with external wizarding examinations; this ball was in no way the same as the one that had occurred four years ago. The lack of nerves, therefore, was due only to Linus’ comfort in the presence of Brianna, and his increasing self-assurance that he could hold his own in this world that, four years ago, had been relatively alien to him.

The couple had agreed to meet in the Crotalus commons, the most logical location, as they would both be passing through that way, anyway, and Linus could offer assistance to Brianna as they made their way to the Hall together. As he waited there, Linus contemplated that perhaps there was an aspect of the evening about which he might feel a little apprehensive. Dancing was not a concern – if they did dance at all, it would be necessarily uncomplicated to cater for Brianna’s limited mobility – and he cared little for any of the end of year announcements; he doubted their team had excelled in the challenges, and he hadn’t amassed sufficient respect for any of the potential student headship candidates that he hadn’t even summoned enthusiasm to vote for them, submitting a blank slip, instead. Unusually for Linus, the aspect of the evening that presented some minor anxiety was, in fact, his relationship with his date.

In hindsight, he realised he ought to have been more explicit with his invitation, stipulating either that they were going as friends, or as a couple with more exclusive implications. He had not, however, made any distinction of the kind, and was not a hundred per cent sure he and Brianna would be attending with the same agenda. It was something he might have to clarify, for his own peace of mind and for her humility, but the fifth year had never claimed that tact one of his strengths. If he could get through the evening without embarrassing or upsetting either one of them, he would consider it a success. Having a good time was a great deal more likely; he rarely found himself wishing to be elsewhere when Brianna was present.

As if that very thought had summoned her, Linus lifted his gaze to see his date for the evening approaching. She gave a small wave to show that she had seen him, too, to which Linus responded with a nod of acknowledgment. He took the seconds she required to close the distance between them to check that his blond hair remained neat and presentable, and the same applied to his classic black dress robes. In the Muggle world he’d be wearing tuxedo; his dress robes were almost the same thing, but with a considerably longer jacket. Brianna’s dress would similarly not look out of place on a Muggle counterpart, but that was the last thing going through Linus’ mind as he did his utmost to meet her eyes.

“You look incredible,” he told her. He began a movement to hold out his arm for her to take, but aborted the motion when he realised her crutches would make that difficult, if not impossible. He didn’t mind the crutches as such, but it frustrated him that Brianna couldn’t enjoy the same ball experience as everyone else. It was lucky he’d never encounter the cretins that had done this too her; he’d hex them beyond recognition. As it was, the very least Linus could do was help Brianna to make the most of her condition. “Here,” he took out his wand and charmed her crutches to glisten gold, like her shoes. He replaced his wand and gestured with his other arm towards the exit. “Ladies first.”
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Brianna Japos

May 05, 2013 4:25 PM
At his compliment, Brianna gave an uncomfortable small laugh and felt the heat in her cheeks. She wasn’t used to compliments, most especially on her looks. She was pleased though to hear it and that showed in her smile. “Thank you. You look very handsome in your dress robes.” He normally looked handsome because he had one of those faces and was always dressed nicely, but there was something to say about a person who wore formal dress wear to an event. Brianna didn’t understand why there weren’t more girls trying to get to Linus. He seemed as though he would have been a wonderful catch to have. Of course, she wasn’t sure how well people really knew her classmate as he tended to seem standoffish and possibly arrogant, so that might have been an issue.

“Oh!” Brianna breathed when he had charmed her crutches to match her accessories. She hadn’t thought to do that herself and now felt silly for it. She was half tempted again to only go with one cane and gain the extra assistance by using Linus for support, but she immediately dismissed the thought. She might tire herself out and then she’d be useless as a date for Linus or a companion for anyone else. Plus, who was to say he wouldn’t abandon her to go hang around someone else during the ball? If that happened, she would have no way of getting back to the common room. Not to say that he would do that too her, but she wasn’t silly enough to believe she would hold his attention for the entire evening.

“Thank you.” She said both to the charm on her crutches and for him allowing her to go first. It was a long walk to the hall and it made Brianna nervous for some reason. This was quite possibly her first actual ball. She didn’t know if the one in her first year really counted. It had seemed more like a theme party than a ball and she was too young to really understand the importance of it. Now that she was sixteen and this ball actually seemed like a story tail sort of ball where everyone dressed up in their finest and the boys asked the girls to dance, etc., she realized that this one had more meaning.

When Linus had asked her, she had automatically assumed that it was as friends as she did when Josh had asked her too. But, others may have thought otherwise, including Josh who had suggested that Linus may end up jealous if she asked for a dance from Josh. She had dismissed the idea completely because she couldn’t see Linus as being jealous over anything, but now she wondered if it was rude for her to dance with someone other than her date and was this considered a date? She was too nervous to ask because she didn’t know what the implications meant if it were a date and didn’t want to think about it. That was too much pressure for herself to deal with at the moment.

Once at the ball, Brianna tried to find Valerie and Josh. She had wanted them to come together so that they wouldn’t be sitting around alone, but Valerie’s betrothal had something to do with forcing her to go alone and Josh was stubborn. She didn’t see them though, so she found an open table for them to join when they came. “Congratulations to Pecari, I suppose.” Brianna commented to Linus, looking around at the decorations. She’d have to say that to Mellie and Sully if she saw them. The announcements began and Brianna listened with care. She didn’t really know the Librarian other than by face and name, but she was still familiar and it would be sad to see a new face replace her come the new term. She was not terribly surprised by the announcement of Head Boy and Girl since both Teppenpaws were popular and well known around the school, but she was slightly surprised that an Aladren boy hadn’t won.

When the teams were announced, she couldn’t say that she was surprised her team wasn’t the top five, but she was still a little saddened by it. They had tried so hard. She felt partially to blame on that. If she hadn’t been such a weak link, they might have done better. She clapped for those who had won though and was happy to be able to have a plaque to reflect that she had succeeded at completing these challenges. “We have another yearbook.” Brianna commented, opening it out of curiosity. Neither she nor Linus were Prefects, so they didn’t have to worry about the dance and she was more hungry than anything as it was. So, she waited for the food to arrive and entertained herself at the awards.

“You've won quite a few.” She mentioned to Linus, smiling at him. “I only received ‘Most Bashful’. Which, I think is fair.” She was not a talker, but she had been doing better lately about talking to people. It was a step in the right direction. When she reached the last of the last of the awards, she was grateful she hadn’t been eating anything because she was sure she would have choked. “We… we made ‘Best Couple’.” The surprise clear in her voice. “I’m sorry. That’s probably embarrassing for you.”
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Linus Macaulay

May 05, 2013 5:10 PM
Arriving at the Hall was the first disappointment of the evening; anyone with eyes could ascertain that pecari had won the House Cup. It was somehow tolerable when Aladren managed to beat CRotalus to the punch, but losing to Teppenpaw or Pecari was just embarrassing. Still, Linus soldiered on, following Brianna's lead to an empty table (which he thought was a brave move, as anyone could join them there), and merely nodded in a resigned sort of way to her comment about the House championship. It almost seemed like rubbing salt into an open wound that the head Boy and Girl would both be in Teppenpaw next year, but beyond that Linus didn't mind their election; he liked and respected them as equally as any of the other options he had rejected in the voting process.He applauded in good humour, and again when it was revealled that thier team hadn't won the challenge competition. linus couldn't say he was surprised; whislt they had made valilant efforts, nothing they had done seemed exceptional, and with twenty teams competing, the winners inevitably needed an edge over the average.

"We have another yearbook," Brianna announced as the prefects began to lead the dance, which was a suitable distraction from reminding Linus that he held no such title. He, too, began thumbing through the pages, enjoying it more than he thought he would - he even responded with a smile to a couple of the awards he found particularly amusing. He only looked up at Brianna when she made a peculiar sound and directed his attention to the final page. "we made ‘Best Couple’," she said, evidently surprised. Linus would admit to a similar emotion, probably identifiable by his raised eyebrows. "I’m sorry. That’s probably embarrassing for you."

Linus struggled for a split second to find the right way to respond to that, and in the end he leant back in his seat and claimed, "Only because everyone else evidently has a better idea of what's going on than I do." That was indeed cause for embarrassment; he had apparently been so obvious in his particular regard for Brianna that people had even nomintaed them in such a category. He wasn't clear why Brianna thought he might feel embarrassed by the revelation that he had not been so discreet as he would have liked, but at least this presented an opening for the conversation he had been meaning to have at some point during the festivities.

"I really hope I'm not going to ruin the night by saying this," he began, preferring to look at the photogrpah of Brianna printed in the yearbook rather than at the flawless original, "but I should have asked you here on a date, rather than as a date. If I had," Linus paused, uncertain he really wanted to know the answer to the question he had begun, "would you still have said yes?" The worst that could happen, he supposed, was that she woul reject him and leave to spend the evening with someone else, and that was probably tolerable. Linus held his breath, keen to have Brianna put his mind at rest.
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Brianna

May 05, 2013 10:54 PM
Brianna furrowed her brows at his response, confusion clear on her face. Her full lips formed a frown at him as she tried to understand what it was exactly that everyone else knew and she (and apparently he) didn’t. She returned her gaze to the yearbook. Other than Ryan and Sophie, who Brianna didn’t know but thought were only friends, everyone else listed actually were couples. Were she and Linus listed because she spent time together? If that were the case, she and Josh should have been on it more so than she and Linus. Or was it that everyone knew she and Josh were only just friends and so thought differently about her and Linus? Linus seemed to be taking this well. Apparently being linked romantically to her didn’t make him ill. That was a plus.

Her attention returned to him when he started to speak, but his first sentence began to worry her. If that was how he was going to start the conversation, she knew it wasn’t going to be a good thing. Of course, what he had said was not at all what she was expecting. Actually, it was the exact opposite of what she was expecting. She stared blankly at him for a moment as his words sank in. Did he like her? Did he like her? Did he like her? The various ways in which a person could ask the question repeated itself within her head. She had done to Linus what Michael had done to her the year prior. However, even thinking back through their interactions, she couldn’t recall a moment where Linus acted differently around her. He had always just been cool and collected Linus. She was sure she would have noticed… right?

“Er…” She didn’t know how to answer that. She didn’t. She liked him, but what wasn’t there to like? Okay, probably a lot, but Linus wasn’t the same Linus from their first year. He had grown up quite a bit and Brianna did enjoy spending time with him. It wasn’t the same sort of crush she had had with Michael. That one had been a deep and overwhelming crush that had ended in such bitterness for her that it had taken her a long time to get over him. Actually, thinking upon it now, she couldn’t even recall the moment when she had, but she was over him. It was strange to think that after that rejection, Brianna had hated him. She had wanted the world to swallow her up. She had never thought she would be okay ever again. The incident had a lot to do with that too, so really, it was poor timing, but even so, she had moved on.

It was just… she didn’t know what she moved on to. In order for her to heal, she closed off a lot of the pain. Never enough though, to stop her from remembering and crying at night. But even those nights had started to fade. It was a slow process. Everyone kept telling her that. But she was still broken because of it. That’s what her mother said about it. Brianna was broken in many ways and she didn’t want to put that onto anyone else. They didn’t deserve that.

“I don’t know how to answer that.” She told him truthfully. “I don’t know if it’s okay to like you.” She knew that probably didn’t make sense but it was difficult for her to explain her reasoning for things. Brianna gave a frustrated sigh. She really didn’t know how to answer that. “I’m sorry, Linus, I know that’s not what you want to hear.” Brianna said quietly. “It’s just…I get scared when I think about liking someone. It doesn’t matter how it comes about, but it never ends well for me. I don’t want to get hurt anymore. So I don’t think about it because then nothing can happen.” Admitting things was very difficult to do, but she didn’t want Linus to think that she wouldn’t have still come with him to the ball. She had closed herself off to believing in love or even dating. It was easier that way.

“If you had asked me on a date instead of as a date, what would have happened?” Brianna asked him. “I do like you, if that means anything. I’m happy around you. And I feel safe.”
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Linus Macaulay

May 06, 2013 3:38 PM
Of the things he thought Brianna might say, Linus had not anticipated the response she offered. He didn't actually feel especially despondent by her lack of enthusiasm in his vague revelation. It wasn't as if he was madly in love with Brianna. She was beautiful, and smart, and a decent person, as well as interesting to talk to. Plus she needed looking after, and, as a package, Linus found the whole deal attractive; he wouldn't be surprised if he wasn't the only person who found Brianna appealing, hence his eagerness in asking her to the ball early on in the year before anybody else got the chance. He liked to think that he would be able to tolerate a continuation of their friendship if she were to rebuff any further advances.

It would, he thought, have been fairly disagreeable if she'd told him that she had feelings for someone else, instead - Josh McLachlan, perhaps - and he might have felt wounded if she'd have told him that she just didn't like him in that capacity. Although it wasn't as if Brianna was rejecting him, specifically - she just seemed against the idea of dating anyone at all. Linus wasn't sure whether or not this was an improvement on personal rejection.

No, wait. She hadn't actually rejected him, as such. She had told him that she didn't know how to answer the question, and while he had missed the details in her explanation, focussed as he was on maintaining a characteristically neutral expression, he was fairly certain there had been no outright refusal or denial in her reply. She more or less repeated the question she had asked him, and Linus wasn't sure whether or not she was asking rhetorically, so he concentrated on her last utterance; the only undeniably positive comment she had offered.

"Well that's a start," he conceded aloud to himself. He knew she was more or less comfortable around him, considering they had spent a great deal of time together that term already, with him helping her to and from classes and the commons, and them being on the same challenge team. He didn't really know what to make of her being unsure of whether it was okay to like him. What did that even mean? Truthfully, Linus didn't know how to respond to most of what she had said. there was, however, one point he needed to make clear. "I'm not sure what it is you're saying," he said slowly, hoping not to offend her, "but whatever you decide, how ever you do or don't feel, I will never hurt you, Brianna."
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Brianna

May 06, 2013 10:28 PM
She was not expecting him to take anything she had said in a positive light. She knew that she had issues. She had quite a few issues. Brianna was pretty certain that Linus didn’t know everything that had happened to her or really, understand the reasoning why Brianna tended to close herself off to people and this venue was not the right place to say anything about it either. She knew that the basic story of what happen had gotten around, most especially because Aaron and Harley were considered adults in the Magical World and although her name was never mentioned in the news due to being a minor, she was certain that anyone with half a brain had put it together. Josh, Valerie, and (unfortunately), Michael all knew the truth. She trusted Josh and Valerie to know they wouldn’t have said anything on purpose. She did not trust Michael though. Her issue with believing in people also stemmed from Michael. Her first crush that had ended with her hating herself more than she had thought possible.

Those were things that she couldn’t outright say to Linus. She didn’t want to say them. She didn’t want him to know how angry and hurt she was. Linus liked her. Someone liking her was like a dream. Someone like Linus, who seemed to breeze through life and could date anyone, liked her. She didn’t understand why. There was absolutely nothing special about her. She was too much of a lot of nothing. But if she said any of that, Linus would regret having said anything at all.

Her eyes lifted from the yearbook in front of her to Linus. As much as she wanted to believe him when he said that, she was too cynical for it. But it was still nice to hear. She knew she couldn’t explain how she was feeling for anyone, including herself, to fully understand so she didn’t get upset when he was honest about not following. “Thank you.” She said quietly. “It’s not that I don’t want to date you, I just need time. Maybe we can go slow?” She had no idea what that meant, but she heard people say it and it was supposed to be helpful. “One day at a time?” She looked hopeful at that. If she slowly became adjusted to the idea of dating someone, she might be okay. But jumping right into it and not knowing what was happening was something she knew she wouldn’t be able to handle.
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Linus

May 08, 2013 12:10 PM
The longer this conversation continued on, the more Linus wished he hadn't started it. Then again, at least he had a clearer idea now of how things stood between the two of them. he only wished it hadn't left him feeling quite so vulnerable. "It’s not that I don’t want to date you," Brianna had said, "I just need time. Maybe we can go slow?" Linus hated that expression, and he had a feeling he might have frowned for a fraction of a second whilst he processed her reply.

The fifth year hadn't considered there was a middle ground in whether or not you wanted to date a person; he'd thought it was a black or white kind of scenario. Yet Brianna was sending conflicting messages, so Linus would have to concede the gray area. Unfortunately, that didn't make it any more palatable. Whilst the notion that she might not want to date him at all was acceptable, the idea of dating him practically against her will was abhorent. Linus was nobody's pity case, especially not someone like Brianna. "Don't worry about it," he said, forcing a smile.

Yet he needn't be too rash. There was no point in breaking bridges when she sounded as though she could be talked round. There was the vast separation of the summer break just around the corner, which might present both of them with the opportunity to consider in which direction to proceed. "Take a bit more time over the summer, and let me know how you feel when we come back next term." Maybe it would be better that way, anyway, rather than beginning a relationship right before an inevitable, extended absence of the other person. "How does that sound?"

If he were being entirely honest, Linus had, at some point beteen wake and sleep, allowed himself to visualise a turning of events wherein he had danced with Brianna at the ball, whisked her back to the commons and kissed her goodnight before they parted, but that was becoming increasingly less likely with every word he spoke. He would be content with an alternative that was anything but discomfort and awkwardness that could have been avoided by delaying this conversation.
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Brianna

May 09, 2013 10:33 PM
Brianna wished she could run away or take back everything she had just said. She didn’t understand why she had to be so weird about everything! She knew that she liked Linus. It wasn’t the same sort of crush she had with Michael, but she felt it was better that way. Michael had been an unknown, a mystery. She had these ideas of him that ended up being false. Linus was someone she knew and someone she trusted. He may not have always been the nicest (whether aware of it or not), but she felt he always had good intentions.

She knew as soon as she requested some time that he was not happy. She had disappointed him like everyone else. Why did she have to make things so difficult on herself? Why couldn’t she just say what she wanted to and be happy? She wanted to go out with him. The idea of him wanting it was surprising, but she wanted to jump for joy and squeal about it to Valerie like girls were supposed to. She wanted to do that. But for some reason that Brianna couldn’t explain, but had to resist the urge to bang her head against a wall for, she was terrified of doing that. As though, by embracing it, would rip it all away from her. And now, because of her fear, Linus was probably angry with her.

She had meant it when she said she just needed time to adjust. The only kind of physical touch or attention she had ever received from the opposite sex had been through violence. Sometimes, when she closed her eyes, she could still feel them pressed against her, their lips forced onto her mouth. In those moments, she couldn’t breathe, paralyzed by her own fear even knowing it wasn’t real. That was her issue. She didn’t know how to transition away from that and into something warm. She didn’t know how to accept Linus’s advances without fear.

“Okay. We can do that.” She agreed, if only because that was the only option he seemed to want to give her now. She had ruined it. On impulse, Brianna reached out and touched his hand, but removed it after a slight hesitation. “I’m sorry I’m so complicated.” Complicated was a nice way of putting it. “I’m really trying to fix myself. If I can do that, I’ll be better for you and, you know, be able to go on a date with you or however it works. “

She felt foolish for saying anything at all. Talking about one’s shortcomings probably wasn’t the best thing to do, especially since she doubted Linus wanted to still go out with her. She just thought she needed to explain herself a little. She was the problem. Not him. She was the broken one who flinched at the idea of touching or was scared that a kiss from someone would hurt her again. She didn’t have the right to pull Linus into all that when she wasn’t ready. She needed to fix herself so that she could be a good person to him.

“Do you want to dance?” She asked, hoping to change the subject and maybe forget this conversation for a little while. “I mean, if you don’t mind helping me.”
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Linus

May 12, 2013 5:01 PM
She agreed to think about his proposition over the break. She touched his hand, and Linus looked towards the point of contact, a little surprised by it. Brianna moved her hand away again almost instantly. Linus was prepared to leave it at that, and to not discuss the matter any further during the ball, but then Brianna started babbling apologies about being complicated. It was a little surreal; Linus had known that Brianna didn't have a lot of self-confidence, but he'd never experienced her being this... he wasn't even sure what the word was. Whatever, he found it unsettling, and tried not to be annoyed that she had taken him off guard in so many ways in such a short period of time. He had thought they had become much better acquainted over the past term, but evidently there was still much progress to be made in that arena.

"It's okay," he told her calmly, very keen not to upset Brianna, to ruin their evening, or to cause any sort of scene at such a broadly attended event. Hoping that would put her at ease, rather than cause any further anxiety, Linus returned her gesture, touching her hand for only a moment before releasing it again. It was brief contact, but, bizarrely, he found it peculiarly comforting. His lips twitched into a hint of a smile. He inwardly mused that perhaps they could manage holding hands before they graduated.

"Do you want to dance?" Brianna asked, and Linus thought her tone had changed, as if she wanted to move on from their current topic. He didn't blame her, and her distraction technique was one of which he approved. "I mean, if you don’t mind helping me."

It would be an honor," Linus replied easily, standing promptly. He held his hand out to Brianna, feeling, for the second time that evening, like he was at a prom with a beautiful date. "How would you like to..." he hesitated, unsure of how best to phrase his question regarding her support. "I mean, if I support you, could you manage without your crutches?" He hadn't meant to indicate that he would prefer to dance without them, but he would admit to being uncertain of the logistics of dancing with a walking stick.
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Brianna

May 14, 2013 9:40 PM
Brianna was relieved that Linus didn’t seem to upset with her for not being able to give him an answer and surprised herself by not jumping at the contact he had made. She knew it was strange… if she didn’t have the crutches, she would have easily locked arms with him to walk down to the ball and had no problem with the idea of dancing with him. To her, those were not meaningful touches. They were ones that anyone could do without any sort of deeper meaning, even if those two people had feelings for each other. But hugging, holding hands, those sorts of touching made her nervous and she tried to avoid them whenever she could. It was probably fitting that Josh and Valerie were her closest friends. Josh was equally awkward with affection and Valerie was often too sick to really be around people (although that was a little different now that she was feeling better).

She smiled brightly when Linus agreed to dance with her. She was fairly certain that the last time she had danced had been at the previous ball and with him. It was a little bit of déjà vu about the whole thing except they were both taller and she had crutches. It was a shame, really, that this would be her last ball while she attended Sonora. She didn’t think she would ever be invited to another formal event in her life. Unless, by some miracle, she was allowed to attend Valerie’s wedding, but Brianna wasn’t senseless enough to believe that it was a possibility. And the idea of a marriage for herself never entered the picture for her.

“Yes, I should be fine.” Brianna said as she took his hand. “My right side is strong, but my left side is weaker, so as long as you allow me to use you for support on that side when I need it, we’ll be able to manage a couple of dances.” She told him. She had been getting better about supporting herself for a long period of time without the use of crutches, but walking without them was still a struggle. Her right managed just fine, but her left… well, she just couldn’t seem to get it to work or support her like it ought to. It was harder though for her on both legs if she was tired or straining them after a period of time, but she figured, if he was helping her with some of that strain, she could make it through most of the ball without ruining their evening too soon by needing to go back to the commons early.
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